Recently I`ve been feeling really alone. Now I have never been one of those people that needs to be constantly surrounded by people and can count on one hand how many people I can call close friends.
Over the last few months I have come to WANT to have more friends and have come to realise that I`m am really lonely.
But why don`t I have more friends?? What is wrong with me?? Why don`t people want to be around me or my family?? Why do we keep getting `forgotten` about or `thought you were busy` when it comes to social events??? Ask me and find out, not assume.
I keep saying to myself that I don`t need loads of friends and that what I have in my family unit is enough but I feel sorry for my kids when they keep getting left out of events that all their friends have been to.
Yes I know I`m not the most confident person in the world, I may come across arrogant but I`m really just scared so keep quite and to myself.
One thing that I have always promised myself is to be true to myself and not become a different person just to be accepted. I see so many people being one person in front of others then completely different as soon as they turn their back.
|My amazing family; Should I change or be happy with what I have??|
Should I ???
Should I fake a laugh, plaster a fake smile on my face and not be me???
I can only imagine how mentally draining it must be to put on a show all the time, having to keep up a pretence in front of people.
Anyway, sorry for the random post but I needed to rant!!! I have a feeling a few things will be changing in my life!!